Make a Wish and Don't Let Go...

My biggest downfall? I let people use me and let them get away with it. I’m so stupid. I shouldn’t believe people.

Forever attracting the wrong people. 

This is going to sound harsh and really stereotypical, but every guy from Hartlepool that I’ve ever met on a night out was after one thing. Now, like I say, I don’t think this applies to the whole male population of the north east, but seriously, where do you go to meet ‘decent’ guys in a town like this? It’s so small and intimate, that really, everyone knows everyone and your personal life is on show for the whole world. 

In London, from what I’ve seen from when I’ve been out, the guys are slightly different. The night I went to Koko with my friends and met a fit army guy (this is what I refer to him as), he was genuinely nice and when I told him I had a boyfriend (utter regret right there), he didn’t walk off in a huff, he grabbed my hand and said, “I want to dance.” I spent the whole night in the club with him, talking and yeah, we were flirting, but I couldn’t help it. He was fit. 

Anyway, I think what I’m trying to point out is as soon as you show your unavailability to guys here, they walk off ‘cause they on to the next one (Jay-Z, eat your heart out). Sounds silly, but I’m never going to meet someone new if I don’t look. I’m not expecting a boy to come out of the blue again like D & A did, and yeah, I’m not looking for a serious relationship right now, but here’s hoping I’m not alone forever! 

For the millionth time in my life I’m just gonna put it out there; I do not understand the male brain.

Seriously though, you all say we’re difficult, but at least we kinda tell it like it is and don’t bullshit. You guys are all so strange. You act one way one minute and another the next. No wonder you all think we’re mental. It’s ‘cause we can’t keep up with your games.

I feel like I should be stronger than I actually am. People always say what you go through in life defines who you are and moulds you into a better person… Well, I feel like I’m exactly the same person that I was this time last year which isn’t all that great. 

I’m far too nice!